August 01, 2003
Namaste Noble Warriors -
still on my mountain yogi personal retreat
deepening my austerities
revisiting Rocky Mountain haunts
whereupon the Wholistic Fitness and
High Performance Yoga
chi
began
and was nurtured
and now blossoms
in each of you
whose devoted WF workouts and HP Yoga Practice
remains strong and sincere.
through my high altitude austerities
the fragile beauty of Self
arises
suddenly
but changes like the colors of a New Mexico sunset
each breath in meditation
devoted to ego-erasure
changing, dissolving, dying...
ethereal residue imprints my soul's effort
to linger with the Divine
and the pain of surrender
Ishvara pranidhana
is achingly intense
growth demands pain
invisible raindrops shatter shallow water
a mesa stock pond's contribution to ripples everywhere
whittled barbed-wire fences sprouts creation;
sagebrush and gramma grasses in parched profusion
seem to look skyward
as platters of cirrus scrape the dry sky
here i am h(om)e
so easy to say forget it to the big city
stay here in my cave
my ego begins to outchirp
the nuthatches
signaling me it's time to
regain padmasana
continue
looking within
but my Practice is feeble
and my lower mind searches
to find one sliver of evidence
proof so i can stay here away from folks of thunder
addicts of entertainment
charlatans of egoic disguise
these pinyons and ravens
do not deceive
the quiet of their air
seems inconceivable
so i sit
like fossilized stone
listen to the roar of my blood
the song of my stilling
ever stilling
breath
relaxed into the gentle throb of Higher mind
waiting without waiting
for Atman's Awakening...
be true to yourself, Noble Fitness Warriors
i breathe up here
for all of us
who choose to swim upstream
i'll be back in LA on Sunday...
to work on hollowing out
our new urban cave
to mimic this one
so we can all Practice
in an environment like this...
one
without
qualm
only
presence
of
self and truth.
i bow to you,
coach ilg